I swear, if I had $25, I'd drop out of the forensics tournament tomorrow. I'm way too tired to be dealing with it.

Got books from Mrs. Dobrez today. Yea! Let me tell you that BOY MEETS BOY is an awesome book. It prompted my semi-breakdown (a week late...). Seriously, if I hadn't been reading it a) at work or b) around all the happy couples, I probably would have completely broken down. Not because it's sad, but because it's so damn happy.

I don't know why I like it so much. Well, I kinda do, I guess, but.... See, if the book were called BOY MEETS GIRL, I would have been gagging and not believed a damn word of the book. It is that sappy and perfect. But because it's BOY MEETS BOY, I adore it and empathize completely.

Double standards are bad things. Avoid them at all costs.

Anyway. I'm considering whether or not it should be nominated for BBYA. 'Cause while I adore the narrator (he and some of his friends started his school's first GSA in something like 4th grade 'cause the straight kids needed their help. They all dressed the same and could not dance to save their lives), the plot of the book is rather thin (boy meets boy, they fall in love, one falls out of love, but they get bak together again and you knew all along they would, so by the end of the story you're smiling happily while trying to hold back your own damn bitter tears 'cause you know...I'm not even going to finish that sentence) and a lot of things are completely not plausible. Paul's, the narrator, kindergarten teacher wrote home on a report card "Paul is definitely gay, and has a very good sense of self." What the hell? He lives in this perfect city where the star quarter back is also the homecoming queen, and the only person who has a problem with this is the guy who crushed on her majorly for awhile, but was turned down. (FYI, this character, Infinite Darlene, is a drag queen, not just a really good female football player) And it's almost like everyone in the damn book is gay. Yeah, maybe nine out of ten of my friends identify as something-other-than-straight, but that's because I'm only friends with about 20 people! And I use the term 'friend' loosely here. But I digress. The point is: awesome characters, in a funny story, but does that make it a best book?

Also got THE FLIP SIDE, about the cross-dressing boy. No idea yet why he cross dresses because I've yet to start reading the book (I finished BOY MEETS BOY at Jake's house between D&D and watching random anime things). I was gonna get GRAVEL QUEEN but Mrs. Rutan's bringing it with her on Monday instead of inter-school mailing it. Bah.

I thought Mrs. Dobrez and I were gonna start killing kids at the library today. One girl was giving Mrs. Dobrez some major attitude over some problem she was having with her book-report thing. And then another girl asked me if I knew of any good books 'cause she's read all of them already. In my head I'm saying "Honey, if I haven't read all of them already, you most certainly have not." And then she wanted me to help her find a book that started out happy and then went into drama. That still didn't help me much. So I had her give me some book titles she likes and I went into the subject headings and found the subjects books like SAY GOODNIGHT, GRACIE were listed under. Then I had to help the girl find the book 'cause she has no idea what the call "number" of FIC ALM means. ~shakes head~ Why do we even do library orientation at the beginning of the year? No one ever listens.

Anyway. After the library, went to the GSA meeting. Mr. Nicolette was supposed to be there, but apparently he had some family emergency type thing (as well as being double booked for meetings. Grrr) so he never showed. We talked to Mr. Cornell and Mrs. Wade and one of the Mac Bay principals, however, and that was nifty.

April left a little early, and picked up Chris and Brad from JP's. I got to say hi to them before I had to run off to work.

Which, in a word, sucked. Except for the fact that I got to read most of BOY MEETS BOY. Seriously. I got it out around 4:30 and read every moment there wasn't a customer in the store. I told Trisha (the new manager. The woman who's supposed to have gone to beauty school but had some serious hair issues today) I was doing my homework, lol. Don't know if she believed me since I don't think anyone reacts how I was reacting to a book you read for homework (I'm sorry. The idea of someone singing a love song to someone they like gets me every time. It's my whole musical background. I do not see anything implausible about people bursting into song at appropriate, or even inappropriate, moments).

then I went over to Jake's to play D&D. Or watch, rather. By the time we got my character figured out (we kept getting distracted, lol) there was enough time to finish the scene thing they'd already started, and then Nicole had to go home.

Stranding me with the Happy Couples (tm).

And since I know various members of said Happy Couples read this, I'm saying this now: I do not resent you people at all. I do not feel "bad" being around you. Do not develop a Jake complex and start apologizing. I don't need your pity piled on top of my own.

I'm just going to say that being an odd-numbered wheel is not the most comfortable thing. It was okay when Nicole was there, 'cause not only was there someone else to talk to, but she keeps being all Closeted-Heterosexual on me and flirting, lol. She's also my agent for D&D, since I don't know a damn thing about what's going on. But she's a really crappy agent. As soon as I figure things out, I'm gonna fire her.

I don't remember much about my character at the moment since I had very little to do with creating her. I do know her name is Soren, she's 5'4" (decent height for an elf), and has a comeliness fact of 104. I'm the hotest member of the group! Hah! I'm almost double poor Jake's comeliness factor. Almost 10 points hotter than April, heh heh. I'm also bi-curious, lol. Everybody else (that rolled for a sexual orientation tonight) is straight. So, combine that with my super-high comeliness factor and my maxed out charisma and I can have anyone I want, basically, lol.

If only real life worked this way, huh?

So, tomorrow is forensics...gah. I really should be memorizing right now, but I'm past the point of caring about the stupid poem I'm doing. I'll work my way through my first three rounds tomorrow, probably watch the poetry final, and then come home and...I don't know...do something really original and mope and be bitter about being single. Woo hoo.

Britt's leaving for Vegas at some obscene hour of the morning tomorrow. And I hate her with a passion because of it. What am I gonna do without Britt to harass this week? She's also, like, the only person who hasn't tried to completely sympathize with me over the whole Rebecca situation.

Which is just really stressing me out. She's not acting that much different around me, which is freaking me out. I'm almost beginning to wonder if I dreamed the whole damn break up and any day now she's gonna ask me to the prom.

but I'm going to stop ranting about this now. Wait, actually, bitching about Rebecca seems to make me do better at forensics tournaments. Marian told me on Tuesday, right before my final round, that Rebecca was allegedly interested in dating some guy...and I got second place in that round. So maybe if I whine the whole way to Kenowa I'll kick ass all day and take home a trophy ;-)

Yes, I realize that by now I'm not making any sense. But I don't know how much I care. Are diaries supposed to make sense?

Damn straight boys. And Charlie is so one of them.

--Angela

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