Life is boring, as usual.

Scheduled my audition for NYU last night...only to discover I'm going to have to leave on the same date as a performance for "The Dining Room". Fuck. So I'm going to either change my audition date, beg Mom to somehow figure out how we could maybe fly to New York and take the train home (oh, yeah, there were no audition dates left in Chicago so we have to go to NYC!!!), or resign myself to another play-less winter, since I'm pretty sure the second weekend of February is a theatre MIFA competition. So within five minutes I was hysterically happy and hysterically sobbing. My life has not been so cool lately.

Nicole is trying to be a very noble person. She contacted Tim, her ex-boyfriend, after a pretty bad break up, hoping to be friends again. She didn't miss the guy she broke up with, but she missed the friend she used to have. Which I respect her so much for. I don't think I'd be able to do the same thing in her situation.

Anyway, she told Tim a bit about what's going on in her life now, which includes the GSA, obviously. Tim, it turns out, is a biggoted idiot who believes homosexuals are sinners, etc., and started dishing out Bible verses. What a friggin' idiot. I was never all that fond of Tim. I don't know why. I just got kinda bad vibes from him and was never comfortable. I don't know if I was really happy when he and Nicole broke up, but...relieved, maybe? I don't know. I just know that I definitely wasn't upset. And now perhaps all my feelings about Tim have been justified.

Gah. Idiot. He pisses me off so much. After his little tirade about how sinful gay people are, he started talking about how Nicole's "obsession" with homosexuality made him uncomfortable, and he thought that maybe her feelings laid elsewhere. Unless Nicole was showing him a completely different side than she was showing me, Nicole had no obsession with homosexuality last year. That was me, at least according to her. And as far as I could tell, she was the one who was uncomfortable with my choice in reading material. That's part of the reason I was so hesitant to come out to her: the way she talked about my "obsession" with all things gay made me feel like she was disdainful of it all. It was the sort of tone that made me think she was really uncomfortable with the idea of me reading queer lit and possibly being gay myself. Obviously, we've cleared that up now, but the fact that Tim could even begin to say that, and more, about Nicole...gah, it's pissed all of us off. Britt wants to know where he lives and how illegal attempted manslaughter is. I'm sure manslaughter in any form is pretty illegal, but I do know where Tim lives....

I go into work bright and early tomorrow :-Þ. Then I need to come up with some sort of dessert or appetizer for the party, then, woo hoo! Party at HCT with a whole bunch of cast members from "Mattress" (including Dan, Jen and Amanda, unless something major happens that would keep them from coming).

I think I'm gonna get to work on choosing a monologue now. God, I can't believe I actually have an audition for NYU....

--Angela

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